Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Unleashing the Fear

Each and everyone of us have fears. And there are many kinds of fear: sudden fear (alarm), strong desire not to do something (dread), fear of doing something against one's conscience or better judgment (qualm), fear of unfavorable results (worry), brief but strong loss of composure (panic), fear that causes immediate physical reaction (horror), fear of one specific thing beyond reason (phobia), and the surrender to extreme fear (terror). Fear is a strong emotion due to foreseeing or becoming aware of danger; the reason or cause of such strong emotion.

One of my weaknesses is fear and this fear always swallowed my self- confidence. Since I was a child I always get teased by my classmates because I'm not perfect. Yes, I know that there is no one in earth is perfect but as for myself I have a lot of imperfections. I let my imperfections ruled me and slowly experienced self-pity. Good thing about my attitude is I always talked to myself. I told to myself not care of whatever they say because my family was there, they are not the one who fed me, they are also human, they fart, though other people have everything still they poops, these are just words just to uplift myself.

Fears always let us down, that's why I slowly conquer my fears as I slowly grow up to maturity. Things like that will not help us. I am shy typed person but my aunt said that I must not be shy because I am educated person. Those words helps me. I also get challenge to the people around me. Like people who can speak on stage, sing to the crowd, anything that involves crowd. I think, if I will do those thing, i cannot make it. I have a stage freight as well as being in front of the crowd. But since there are people who can do it, what's the reason why I can't do it? It only needs practice and building self-confidence.

Unleashing fears is not that easy, it takes time. But If you have the guts which included with prayers. Surely those fears will not be fears anymore they will become your greatest dream.

3 comments:

snage said...

te pril, its ok.... the way you talk during the FT presentation makes you one **** of a risk taker...


weeee, dont be afraid, nothing's ever conquered and won without leaving the fear behind....

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Thursday, February 12, 2009
Graduation Rites?
Hapit na jud ang graduation. Naa kaya koy Right na mo graduate? sumala sa gitawag na Graduation Rites. Nahuman na ang among Future Tech na subject ug dako ako pasalamat na humana na jud ug bisan sa kalisod na akong naatubang sa kani nga subject wala ko nag give up. Daghan mga pagsulay nga akong na encounter sa kini nga subject pero padayon sa paglig-on. Apan, dili lang kini ang dapat na humanon aron maka gradwit. Daghan pa. Pareha sa among SDP. Kelangan pa namo adtoon ang skwelahan aron mag maintenance me sa among system. Kelangan pa nako follow-up na pud akong grupo na cla cane ug angelo. Dili lang kana. Naa pay Elective 2, Padayon sa among research na subject. Nahuman na ko sa akong pre-survey ug mag sugod nako sa akong questionnaire. Pavalidate pa nako sa akong mga validators, ug ang akong adviser kelangan pa nako pugson kay busy kaau xa. Bisan pa na layo pa kaau ko itry japon nako akong best na mahuman ko, kay nakita jud nako kung unsa ka excited ako parents, ug dili lang cla. Nangutana ko sa akong pinalangga na manghud kung gusto ba xa na mo gradwit ko. Ingon xa "uu ate, graduate na aron makakaon nata ug penongs". Natandog ang akong heart. kahilakon ko maghuna-huna. Labi na kung makita nako ako tatay ug nanay naningkamot. Ginaisip nako na dapat mo graduate nako aron maka trabaho na kay gusto nako dili na cla molihok pa, panahon na pud na ako ang motabang sa ilaha kay tigulang na akong mga ginikanan. Naguol ko tungod kay ako na lang jud ang paglaom sa akong ginikanan. kay akong mga igsoon nangundang ug skwela sa kani nga panghitabo, kinahanglan na jud nako mo graduate kay dako au akong responsibilidad.

Daghan au ko ug mga project ug dili jud ko nagapangayo ug kwarta sa akong ginikanan. Adlaw2 na baon lang ang akong ginipangayo apil na dira pamashe. Ang mga project sa skwelahan ug amotan dili ko naga pangayo kay maluoy ko sa akong parents. Nagkabuhat ko ug ani karon kay nakakita ko sa memo sa schedule sa graduation. Petsa April 16. Adlaw sa akong natawhan. Lami unta kaau na makagraduate ko kay April 16 ang petsa.
Maningkamot ko na mga makapaso aron makapaso pud ako ginikanan. Pero kung dili nako makaya, wla na tingali ko mbuhat. pero unta makapaso jud ko. Basta maningkamot lang ko. Unta makaya pa nako.

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